Pre Dec, 2000

8/30/00 Decadence of data
9/1/00 Formation of a concept
9/1/00 All I have to say for enligtenment
10/3/00 Following a music program
10/26/00 Short term memory as cache

As I sit and listed to the Future Sounds of London, Lifeforms, I realize how rich our society is in sensation available to be experienced. Such rich and vibrant experiences, but a fingertip away, that we might page through shelves of disks full of such sensation to idly choose one to play at a whim. I take a moment to reflect and savor this power, before I slip in to the decadence of taking such things for granted in this information society.

Life itself is data.

Cognitive patterns form, defining one aspect, grouping related characteristics linked by one common element. The tapestry of form emanating from the center of likeness, differences radiating in all directions, forming the shape of the full possibilities of the idea. Cognitive concept, singular idea encompassing all that lies within it, defined and bordered, contained by definition. A single unit, manipulatable as a particle unto itself. The reality of an idea, coming into being. Thought in discrete structure, made a real object within the space of mind, a being within the space of aether, behaving according to its internal rules and functions, as an autonomous entity. Pieces of data abstracted together into a single system that can act of its own accord, according to its nature. A concept is born.

Take the jeweled bird out of the box. Find within its beak a tiny scroll with the plans for its construction. Build a thousand birds, with a thousand scrolls, and give them away to everyone who is dazzled by its beauty.

Sugar crash really sucks. Catharsis of everything is as bullshit. Stuck. Add hard fast driving music to pound into me. Pick me up, follow the beat, and move. The music doesn't really take me anywhere, but it moves me. In motion is life. Catharsis is thrown into beat, driven out. No longer stuck, depression lifts. Back to work.

Interesting how when one is unable to write their own program, following another program for awhile breaks inertia so that one can begin to rite themselves again. Consciously submitting to external stimuli, as a jump start for internal will. Effectively, one shuts down and becomes a programmed drone, until energy levels are high enough to become sentient again. Music is awfully useful.

I depend so heavily on externally stored data, my own brain is used now for a different purpose: caching. Often referenced account data is stored in my head as cache, to be cleared out later when no longer needed. Temporary short term memory, lowest priority but with rapid access time. Most things do not get transferred to long term memory. So much data passes through my cache in a day it couldn't all be saved. When I actually need to save something to long term/permanent memory, it is a noticeable shift. Almost like flipping a switch, to give the additional energy needed to actually record to disk rather than float through ram and out again for the next task. The good part being, when I consciously choose to remember something, I can do so more effectively, knowing that it is going directly into long term memory rather than into short term until repeated enough or digested to be made permanent.